Hard to believe the last time I wrote was almost a year ago. I think a part of me just wanted to be done. Done hurting and aching, done open...

written on 01/04/2015 Our baby was due a month from today.  It makes my heart ache thinking about what this month should have, could hav...

written 01/01/2016 The holidays have been a tug of war between rejoicing for the future that the birth of Christ promises and being...

written 12/06/2015 I have always been a social person, an extrovert. I love to be around people. So, it is very different for me ...

11/19/2015 We always knew we wanted children. I have always known Michael would be the most incredible, attentive father. Until last Ja...

11/18/2015 I haven’t written much. More than anything, in most moments I feel there are no words. For the first time in months I do...

11/8/2015 3 days after we lost our second Yesterday I cleaned and organized everything I could in an attempt to control something and lo...