Day 4
07/11/2015
When I went to bed last night, I thanked God.
But this morning when I woke up, I had to remind myself of
the truth:
Baby is gone.
I am not pregnant.
Michael and I went for a drive this morning. The sun was
bright. Everything was so green and so beautiful. The world is still beautiful.
I finished baby’s journal, unsubscribed to Baby Bump
emails, and I checked some of my messages. And then, I didn’t feel brave
anymore. I didn’t feel strong. I went back to the guest bedroom and lay in the
dark in my husband’s arms, drained and weak and broken while the sun continued
to shine.
Today, I feel more lost than ever.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. Matthew 5:4
ReplyDeletePraying for comfort for you and Michael.
Thank you.
DeleteThe steps you took today were so brave. The apps and the emails being gone will help until you need them again one day. You will absolutely get through this. I'm so happy you are blogging about what seems to be the unspoken event of so many. Keep trucking.
ReplyDeleteI love your encouragement, thank you so much.
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